Another High Point On This Coaster

consequently--i dreamed about a roller coaster last night!

...we're running low on birth control... and for the first time, i don't know if i want to replace it.

isn't that weird?

i've been having all these dreams about babies. where i'm holding them and taking care of them and crying cause i love them so much. they all seem so real--they wake me up with a feeling of longing, like there's something i'm missing.

oh, and if you're trying to stay away from wanting babies,

don't look at baby clothes online!


i think that might have been what really started me going on this baby-hungry kick.

it's hard to tell though, because for the past year and a little i've been on baby-hungry kicks, but they all leave within a week.
is this the same? or is this for real?
because this has certainly lasted longer than a week.

i'm seriously mad for babies right now.

i've been looking up baby names,
calculating due dates
looking at baby clothes, accessories, quilts, cribs, baby food even--

this is starting to sound cheesy. no?

well, in november of last year i decided that we would try in february. but at the beginning of this month, when it was time for me to follow through with my decision--i brushed it off for another time.

but now, only the second week into the month, it's starting to eat at me.

so i decided to think seriously about it, and see what i feel.

i'm due for my period any day now, so that'll give me an extra week to think about things, right?